Liam Payne admits he’s lonely without son Bear
He’s refreshingly frank and honest about how he feels living his life in the spotlight, feeling immensely grateful but also sad about the things he has missed out on.
And top of that list is his son Bear, two, who he shares with ex-girlfriend Cheryl, 36, as he admits he gets ‘very lonely when he doesn’t see him for a couple of days.’
During a talk on Straight Talking with Ant Middleton, 38, on Tuesday, Liam, 26, admitted his own life is ‘problematic and difficult’, slammed Zayn Malik for ‘chasing his own dreams’ and revealed his One Direction doubts.
‘My home life is problematic and difficult’: Liam Payne told Ant Middleton on Tuesday night he’s lonely without son Bear, 2, slammed Zayn Malik for ‘chasing his own dreams’ and admitted to his One Direction doubts
Fears: He revealed that his life is not always perfect and he struggles with understanding whether or not he is doing things the correct way
He said: ‘I saw X Factor as a way out from the life we were living in Wolverhampton. We were in debt, so it felt like do or die.
‘My parents did really well though and that was never shown on the show. When they said they were putting us in a group, they asked me, “do you need five minutes” and I said yes. I Rang my dad. I felt that this was the end of my [solo] dream.’
My dad said: ‘You can be 1/5 of something or 100% of nothing.’
‘It could be vicious at first – me and Louis did not get along at all – he was the oldest. I didn’t have many friends, didn’t know how to mix with anyone.’
He said of Cheryl and Bear: ‘It seems to the outside world that I have everything but there are so many parts missing, uncertainty is a big thing in my life, I don’t know how long it will last’
Talking about his beloved son, he said: ‘I get lonely if I can’t see Bear for a few days
‘It seems to the outside world that I have everything but there are so many parts missing, uncertainty is a big thing in my life, I don’t know how long it will last.
‘Also my home life situation is problematic and difficult. Distance is difficult. There are 50 million rumours a week, which are hard to ignore and trust is difficult.’
Heartfelt: Liam was very open and honest with Ant during the programme
He continued: ‘Being away from your child out of choice and no choice is difficult to barter with in your head.
‘You know why you’re doing what you’re doing but you wonder what you’re missing out on and ask yourself, “have you got it right”?’
‘So many people get to the end of their life and go “I wish I’d done this and that” I don’t want to be one of those people.
Referencing Zayn Malik when it comes to a 1D reunion, he said: A few people haven’t made peace with it yet and are chasing different dreams. I doubt it will be all five of us’
‘I haven’t even seen my kid go down a slide yet.’
And delighting One Direction fans everywhere, he said: ‘I think we’ll get back together. But it’s not on me. I am at peace with it.
Referencing Zayn Malik, he said: A few people haven’t made peace with it yet and are chasing different dreams. I doubt it will be all five of us.
‘I think we were okay as a four in the end. It all got a little bit weird as it all finished. Getting to know the feeling of growing up. That was my childhood.’
Adding: ‘I think we were okay as a four in the end. It all got a little bit weird as it all finished. Getting to know the feeling of growing up. That was my childhood’